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Pluses of being laid off:
-Free time during the day to ride my motorcycle!
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[30 Nov 2008|02:40am] |
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24 hours ago, I was taking a nap in the back of an ambulance during some downtime at the end of my ride-along shift. The two paramedics I followed around for 12 hours were both really nice, and cool about answering questions and showing me how everything works.
Important things I learned:
-drugs are bad (don't do heroin!)
-some hospitals give delicious snacks to ems workers
-re-learning spanish would be really useful
-I should get a better stethoscope
-blood really doesn't bother me
-I'm going to love this
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[04 Nov 2008|10:50pm] |
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"This is your victory.
And I know you didn't do this just to win an election. And I know you didn't do it for me.
You did it because you understand the enormity of the task that lies ahead. For even as we celebrate tonight, we know the challenges that tomorrow will bring are the greatest of our lifetime — two wars, a planet in peril, the worst financial crisis in a century.
Even as we stand here tonight, we know there are brave Americans waking up in the deserts of Iraq and the mountains of Afghanistan to risk their lives for us.
There are mothers and fathers who will lie awake after the children fall asleep and wonder how they'll make the mortgage or pay their doctors' bills or save enough for their child's college education.
There's new energy to harness, new jobs to be created, new schools to build, and threats to meet, alliances to repair.
The road ahead will be long. Our climb will be steep. We may not get there in one year or even in one term. But, America, I have never been more hopeful than I am tonight that we will get there.
I promise you, we as a people will get there.
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As Lincoln said to a nation far more divided than ours, we are not enemies but friends. Though passion may have strained, it must not break our bonds of affection.
And to those Americans whose support I have yet to earn, I may not have won your vote tonight, but I hear your voices. I need your help. And I will be your president, too."
-President Elect Barack Obama
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[16 Jul 2008|11:50am] |
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My finger won't stop twitching. It is most disconcerting.
Oh, and if you haven't seen pics on facebook, I has a motorcycle now :-)
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[12 May 2008|10:56pm] |
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Sooooo, do any of you chicas wear size 7 shoes? Because my shoe-testing machine is broken, so I've been sorting samples in the warehouse (which are all size 7, unlukily for me and my size 9s), and there are bazillions of pairs of shoes that I might be able to get for 5 bucks apiece, if they'll fit anybody. Soooo, lemme know.
Oh and for everybody else because I'm curious; what size shoe do you wear?
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[03 Apr 2008|09:47pm] |
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-I got a job working at a shoe company as a lab technician. Mainly I use a really noisy machine to test the friction of work shoes, but the other day I got to smash toolboxes and watch an attempt to run one over with a car. The last couple days my boss has been gone and I've been doing filing and general office lackey stuff, resulting in 6 papercuts. I have no schedule or regular hours, and usually can come in whenever I want, and work until either I'm out of work or it's dinnertime, which is sweet. And everyone I've met there has been really nice, so I've been more social along with more productive, which is better than sitting around all day feeling blah.
-I bought a car. It's a 95 red subaru outback that runs about 100x better than my old car (hard to imagine, I know :P) and is mine and in my name and everything. Well, I'm making payments on it for a couple years, so technically it belongs to the credit union until then, but nevertheless, it is my car. And I'm not afraid of it exploding on me. Which is nice.
-I am still excited about starting EMT classes in the fall
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[02 Feb 2008|12:58am] |
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I have good feelings and bad feelings fighting an epic battle inside me right now.
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Badness: depression still there, apathy for classes reaching all time highs, english major not particularly useful for life except for jobs I don't really want to do
Goodness: realization of possible awesome career that I could totally do!
Badness: current path at osu entirely useless (and expensive), even if I was on top of everything and going to class which I'm not. purpose definitely not here.
Goodness: I want to be a paramedic
Badness: leaving osu, for a long while if not for good.
Goodness: holy crap I'm so excited. I want to do this. This could be a great job for me.
Badness: dropping out of college. Msauceface said that without college we'd fail at life
Goodness: she's wrong. And a bitch. And hated. I'd rather be a college dropout than someone people hate years later. Anyway, I'd be taking classes at PCC, and they'd be really cool classes with a purpose and a goal, and I wouldn't feel so aimless and panicked because I will have a FOCUS and it will be AWESOME
Badness: Didn't you come here to learn and grow and all that stuff?
Goodness: Yeah, but I haven't been doing either for awhile. I've just been miserable
Badness: What if people think of you as the girl who couldn't handle college, or wasn't smart enough, or things like that?
Goodness: I hope they don't.
Badness: Is it a step down?
Goodness: No. It's a leap forward, which is the only direction that matters. You just found a path while you were lost in the woods and hacking through the underbrush with a dull machete and other unfun imagery. Take it!
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I am a bit scared, but I also feel better than I have in a long time. It's almost worth it just for that. Plus I am really excited. This is what I've wanted to do for a long time, only I didn't realize it until now. And later I can finish my BA when I want it, instead of just going through the motions (*sings song from buffy*). But now I have a plan and it will be awesome and I'm excited and I want to learn and do this awesomely and I think this focus will help me tons with being depressed because I have a reason to be not-depressed, which sounds way more simple than it feels.
So I think the good feelings are winning.
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[18 Jan 2008|08:39pm] |
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Dear OSU,
Thank you for the new washers and dryers! I'm really excited at having more than two unbroken machines at any given time. They are also much shinier.
I also appreciate the paper towels in the bathrooms, even though a $5 metal box would be just as welcome as the $60 motion detecting automatic ones. Actually, a stack of paper towels would be much more useful than the expensive boxes sitting in there empty for over a week. Do you plan on refilling them? They are not very useful if you don't. But thank you anyway; It was a nice gesture.
Sincerely,
Tori
*goes back to drying hands on jeans, except now the jeans are clean because there are usable washing machines*
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[01 Jan 2008|01:05am] |
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I've discovered that a double dose of benedryl and a 24 hour claratin are enough to keep me from getting sneezy and allergyish for about 3 hours. I'm pretty sure the sleepiness and social awkwardness that accompanied those 3 good hours was from being on a broken sleep schedule for the last month, and not side effects of the drugs.
I've made lots of little resolutions that can be summed up in the not-at-all-vague "do better". I feel like I have not been me lately, because me likes to do things. Sometimes with other people! I've just been stuck in blankness, and have been ignoring myself and my friends and my classes and everything. Have you ever watched an infomercial really late at night and been so utterly bored you can't even change the channel? Time seems to crawl by, and then you realize that you haven't even moved for an hour, but you lost the remote and don't want to get up to change the channel. I've felt like that for the last 2 years. And then I look around and panic because my friends are doing internships and planning for grad school or career jobs and I have less of a plan for what I'm going to do with my life than I did when I started school.
So this is my goal for this next year. I am going to do better. Even if it's just a little bit better at first. Eventually I will find me again. It's out there somewhere, doing something I've always wanted to try.
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[08 Nov 2007|08:02pm] |
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I have a ginormous mug (seriously, it's a bowl with a handle. freaking awesome) of delicious pomegranate tea (best ever), and am going to knit on my hat (v. 2.0, since I got impatient at not doing anything and just started over) for awhile and watch a couple episodes of Firefly (I was thinking of having a Firefly-a-thon over winter break sometime, perhaps mixed with baking cookies or other delicious things. Anyone interested? (If you've never seen firefly, you will love it))
Also, I just bought a pair of awesome red and black stripey socks that are totally awesome.
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[05 Nov 2007|02:28pm] |
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So I decided that I wanted to learn how to knit something more complicated than a tube scarf, and wandered into the cool little yarn store in Corvallis, and picked two pretty yarns, then searched online for a pattern I liked (perhaps not the best planning). To go along with the adventurous attitude that's embodied the whole affair, given my rather lacking knitting skills, I thought "ooh, a fair-isle knit hat would be pretty!" and away I went, only in black and purple and without the ribbing at the bottom because every time I tried to switch between knitting and purling it got all tangly. Clearly I was doing something wrong, but it looks just fine un-ribbed, except that it likes to roll up a bit. Now I'm done with the patterny part of it, and have to turn it from a headband into a hat, and I am confused at the mention of decreases and double pointed needles. Also, I think it's too small, even though the gauge turned out remarkably close to what the pattern said, given that I used neither the right size yarn nor the suggested needle sizes (though I suppose both could negatively affect the stretchiness of the hat, which is my main problem now, assuming I can finish it). Anyways, I have a very pretty half-hat that I'm going to have to take with me to the yarn store and beg for help, since I don't know anyone here who knits.
In conclusion, I suck at planning, but learned a new skill, and still might be able to (with help) salvage my hat without ripping everything out and starting over *crosses fingers*
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[26 Sep 2007|11:06pm] |
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Back at schooooool...
While I still have no idea what I'm doing, and still am not in an entirely great place mentally, this term looks to be a great deal better than last spring. I am taking quite a few very interesting classes *drumroll*
HSTS 423 - Science and Religion: This could be a very awesome class. It's not attacking or demonizing religion in general, nor is it promoting a specific agenda like intelligent design. It looks like it's going to be a really good discussion on historical interactions, how science and religion complement each other in some situations, what kinds of factors were involved in the famous clashes (like Galileo, Darwin, etc), reason in religion and faith in science. Which is really cool. It is going to be very euro-centric which is a shame because I know early Muslims made huge breakthroughs, and lots of cool ancient civilizations combined their advanced-at-the-time understanding of the natural word with their religion. Anyway, I'm looking forward to it. If you couldn't tell.
GEO 300 - Environmental Conservation and Sustainability: I was happy when I read an article for this class all about how businesses going green, reducing carbon emissions, reducing energy waste, and other things like that can save millions a year. You know, along with saving the earth and stuff. This class is about all the reasons to go green besides the obvious, which makes me happy. And the professor is from Alaska.
ENG 201 - Shakespeare: Required class, not very exciting but not bad. I'm writing this entry instead of reading Richard III, which I need to do by noon tomorrow. The class should be fine, though.
ENG 253 - Survey of American Literature: another required class, but the subject is a bit more interesting and the professor is 10x as engaging. And he reminds me of Gavin Creel who I saw on broadway in Thoroughly Modern Millie and La Cage Aux Folles. Which is awesome.
HDFS 240 - Human Sexuality: One of the most popular classes at OSU, everyone I know that has taken it says only good things about it, interesting professor, very interesting textbook, and we get extra credit for going to an adult shop. If I don't die of awkwardness, it should be cool. And I have it with Elena, so I have someone to giggle to when necessary, which I expect to be often.
ENG 200 - Library Skills for Literary Studies: How to research and use databases and stuff like that effectively. I will get to learn more about the all the resources OSU has, which is useful if not terribly exciting.
So, I tricked you! I bet you were expecting a simple class schedule, not a page of commentary. Mwuahaha. Also, I want to volunteer at a wildlife refuge that rehabilitates birds of prey and will teach volunteers to handle them and give presentations to classes and stuff. Because that is something that I have always thought was amazingly awesome, but I never knew how you'd get into that sort of thing. And I'm considering getting an EMT certification next summer so when zombies attack, I'll be a trained medic. And trauma-ish medicine is really interesting.
So I have lots of things that I've always thought were interesting or cool or awesome, and I'm either taking classes on them or planning to do something about them. This is my plan for feeling better and less depressed. Because if I learn about all that stuff and do all those things, face it: I will be pretty damn awesome. Once I can recognize my own awesomeness, it will be possible to feel good about myself, which is mutually exclusive with feeling crappy.
So what are some things that you've always wanted to try? Or learn about?
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[09 Aug 2007|12:00am] |
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[02 Aug 2007|06:42pm] |
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This is nice and refreshing for hot summer days like today :-)
( easy recipe (but no pictures) )
so do you guys like seeing the tasty foods I've been making? Or is it annoying? Or do you just not care either way?
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[25 Jul 2007|05:11pm] |
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I made a big pot of marinara sauce today but forgot my camera, so no pictures + recipe for you. It's really tasty though. I'm going to make lasagna tomorrow, as just the sauce was enough for today. Cooking is therapeutic. Anybody have ideas on other tasty things I could try? (if you suggest something with meat, I will smack you for being silly)
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[21 Jul 2007|09:04am] |
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*geek*
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